Directing

In this term, I take a class, "Interpreting in Society."
This class focus on not only Interpreting but also other profession intermediate between anything and anybody.

To intermediate is very difficult work.
For example, interpreters have to tell what speaker talked to listener in different language. To do this, they have to study about a topic in advance. Besides, depending on a case, they are needed added value like presiding and arbitrating. Though these work are not original work but needed in fact.

As a final paper, I will write a report about something related to intermediate.
My theme is directing of foreign musical in Japan as intermediating between an original musical and Japanese. As I talked about Romeo and Juliet the musical before, this work was played in over25 countries. And each time the contents is different by directing though the songs used in were aimost same. What did directer do to atract people in a country?
Actually, Japanese one directed by Shuichiro Koike was not so good for me. However, that't why I become interested in directing lol
Now I read a book about directing and acting, or a role of directers. I found some new points to see acting. I recommend to study it if you want to enjoy movies and of course musicals.

What's my view about religion?

I don't have a specific religion.
However, I sometimes pray god for giving me power to overcome something, but the god is vague. I went to a shrine to celebrate a new year. On the other hand, I celebrate a Christmas and hold a party on the day.

I like a way of thinking that everything has its god. Is it animism,an ancient Japanese thinking style?
I don't know much about it, and I'm not interested in its roots. This is my way.

If I walk in a quiet woods, I feel a mystic aura.
I cannot explain the aura well, but it's like Sisigami-sama of Mononoke-hime or Totoro...
These two images are different from each other, but how I feel depends on my mental condition.
What I can say is that I feel something cannot see at the time, but I don't know it is a kind of gods.
Similar things occur when I go to a church, an old construction, a mountain, and so on.

I don't want to deny those who have own religion. But it is true that religion sometimes brings about a conflict. If they allow others to have different thoughts, the world would be more peaceful place. Religion is a very influential thing, can be a crux of a believer. Though I took a introduction of Christianity, and study what religion is, I still wonder it.

Before I entered ICU, I rarely met religious people and thought about religion so much. However, because I chose ICU, I have been interested in it without consciousness.
Now I have many Christian friends and can listen their thinkings. We, don't have religion, are minority in the world. I don't think I will believe particular god in the future, but I wanna know more about it to understand the majority.

Kendo

Kendo is one of my favorite sports:) though I cannot play well. lol

Last Sunday, I went to watch matches at Nippon Budocan with one of my friends who plays kendo at ICU. This was a first time to see live ones. It was sooooooo exciting!! and much more speedy than
I expected. Though I had watched some kendo matches on YouTube, live ones were completely different.

Every fighter's face, voice, and posture were filled up with tension. It continued for 5 minutes till the end of the match. Whether he was win or not, he kept manners.
When I saw they going out to buy some food during a break, their faces were usual. I was impressed with the gap!!!

I think kendo is so beautiful, cultural, and emotional sport.
I play it for 2 months in high school PE class, and I play it again this term once a week.
Though I haven't experienced a formal match, I felt atmosphere of it by only watching.
I really appreciate the friend and a boy who told me about kendo in my childhood.

What does love mean to me?

I think love means feelings

to want to be with someone you love
to wish his/her happiness
to think of him/her

I don't know these feelings are for him/her or for myself.
But, I like to love people because it makes my life more comfortable.
If I would find someone to love, I am made happy by only few words from him.
However, at the same time, to love opposite sex person need courage because it is not always to be loved by him. lol
In addition, sometimes I don't know if I like as a friend or love as a man.


Though I haven't found my lover who ages together yet, I wanna find him and make a family filled with love in the future:)

a driver's license

I plan to get a driver's license in autumn and winter vacation by a gassyuku in Niigata.

I haven't decided where I will work and wether I go back to Fukushima or not.
I think if I work in an urban city, I don't have to get it for a job hunting.
I don't have interest in driving a car, so I don't want to spend time and money if it is not needed.
But, I don't want to give up something because of not having it in the future. In addition, fourtunatly I found a gassyuku discounted for ICU students.
Therefore, I decided to take part in the gassyuku.

The gassyuku is constructed for ICU students. Thouth usual gassyuku needs at least whole 2 weeks, we can devide the 2 weeks into two parts. Therefore we need both autume and winter vacation. It is usefull for me not to use spring and summer vacation, because I can use full of them to do what I want to do. Moreover, a fee of the gassuku is cheapest of other seasons (AT: 198,000 yen and MT: 208,500 yen).

I went to a briefing session today, there were only 3 listeners. Though the session holds 8 times in today and 11/1, I expect that not so many people will go the gassyuku. I heard that in summer many students go to it and have fun together. But in autumn and winter, of course, there are few students. There are some atraction to pass free time. If you want to stay in your own way, this is a chance.

If you want to know more, please tell me :)

What is "happiness" to me? a part-time job

Recently, I am troubled with money management.
I worked for a cafe for 9 months and quited it in September.
I started working there to save money for a trip. I also tried other jobs including one day jobs because I wanted to experience many jobs to know society and, of course earn more.
I had a purpose to work, and it realized already.
Now I wanna go travel again, so I have to save money.

However, my sense of values were changed.
I noticed how wonderful to live only for my pleasure during the trip.
If I don't desire something needs money, I don't have to do what I do only for money (my work was easy but too monotonous.) If I don't travel and watch musicals (at least less), I don't need much money. Which is happier for me? That is a question.

I'm a student. My parents pay a lot for my study. I like studying and reading books. People say student's duty is studying. I know. Since I quited the job, I have read many books, kept my mind calm, and satisfied with studying (though I should do more lol).
I didn't know how I hate working only for money. I eagered to travel, so I missed QOL of daily days in those days. I don't think my effort was not worth, but what should I do now?

"To find a new job which is related to my interest and work a few days a week to secure rest days for pleasure and studying" is ideal, but there are few works to fill up it.

Now I plan to work as a proctoring of TOEIC and practice exams a few a month and find other jobs in spring vacation. ( I recommend working for a tax office in March;))

I think students should manage own money to do what they want to, but I feel how difficult it is.
I wanna overcome this frustration somehow by myself and improve QOL.

What is "happiness" to me?

I feel happinss when people tell what they love to me with enthusiasm.
Though I also like to listen a constracted story calmly, I prefer a passionate person.
I think they take me as a friend who is worth telling.
If I cannot relax to talk about my deep strong emotion for what I love, I chat about harmless topics. I guess others also do that.
Therefore, when I can listen other's dreams or love for something, I become really happy :)

One more!
I like to remember what I did today at night. I enjoy the time alone and tell them to my sister and listen her story. My sisters like to talk very much. Therefore we talk everytime...lol sometimes, it can be my outlet. So I thank her.

Anyway, I'm happy because my family and friends are healthy. I love them and they love me. That is the most important thing to be happy for me.

repos de la nuit

Repos de la nuit (repose at night) is a picture by Alfons Mucha, a Czech painter. He became famous in Frence. Therefore, the picture name is French.
I love this picture very much because I can relax when I see it.
In addition, I think this picture describes how I love night.

At first, I like taking a bath (I'm happy to live in Japan, which has onsen culture). After enjoying bath time, I rest and look upon a dark sky. I think this moment is the best time for me to think about something deeply and positively. Though I forget unwelcome things which occured in a day during bathing, I become more composed. Then, I go to bed and have good sleep. I like this process.
I'm not beautiful like a woman of the picture, neither do I dream with a rapt smile. But I think I know her temper.

I like Mucha cause women of his works are always full of life.
This woman is also shining even if she only reposing with ease.
I wonder how he saw women and how he is. When I meet favorite works(books and paints), I tend to think about authors or painters. Then, I wish I could see the world in their ways at least once.

marriage hunting

I take a class of "Sociology of the family" in this term.

The last class is about recently marriage hunting in Asian countries.

There are two hypothesises about why young people cannot get married.

1. Women who want to keep working after marriage don't want to get married.

2. They cannot find partner who satisfy with own request. Those who think wife stays at home and husband work outside cannot realize their plan because the husband cannot earn enough money to support his family.

Those two are both supported, and the problem come from work system.

Yet, I think money is not a main problem. There are many other causes, but I think the crux is people aim too high. If husband cannot enough money, wife should continue working.

Social system doesn't change easily. We have to change the way of thinking to survive the world and to have family.

but...I became to be afraid of my future even if I was still young! ;ω;　

What are my greatest strengths and weaknesses?

I think my greatest strengths are...

・to be absorbed in something

My interest is likely to change, but I am completely fascinated with each one.

Of course, some are remained as my hobby. I am looking for new interest every day.

・to respect and love many people

I think to love is more difficult than to envy.

When I am pessimistic about own life, I cannot love something nice or admirable person.

Yet, now I can. I think it is an evidence of being positive.

・to have good relationship with family and friends

I am very happy to live supported by them.

I believe I also support them somehow.

On the other hand, my weaknesses are...

・not to speak to new person lol

My family say I am pretend to be a quiet shy girl in front of new people.

Of course, it's not true. Just I cannot but, I think I don't have to try too hard to be friendly.

・not to try hard to do what I don't want to do

I cannot have interests in what I have to do. I need a chance to like them to accomplish them.

・to depend too much on old friends

I have old friends. We were brought up together, and now they all live in Tokyo. When something bad happens to me, I suddenly tell it and meet them to get some advice. However, we are almost adult now. I think I have to be independent of them a little bit.

It is interesting to think about my strengths and weaknesses. We tend to think only about weaknesses. I am glad to find my good points :) and want to improve weaknesses little by little.

Strange case of Dr.Jekyll and Mr.Hyde

Last week, I read Strange case of Dr.Jekyll and Mr.Hyde by Robers Louis Stevenson, an English novelist. I think you already know the story because it is so famous.

The theme of the story is "a dual personality." Dr. Jekyll transformed himself into Mr.Hyde by medicine he found. Dr. Jekyll was looked as a kind and admirable person, but Mr.Hyde was looked as brutal and violent one. Being Mr. Hyde was to open mind for him. He enjoyed this secret for a while, but he became not to control this change. He couldn't keep being Dr.Jekyll.

To afraid to be exposed the secret, he committed suicide and left letter which the secret was written in.

Sometimes, I want to read such a dark but understandable story. Dr. Jekyll was a weak person who depended on the medicine to disclose his dark aspect of his personality. However, I think we people repress vicious mind by common sense or own honor like Dr. Jekyll hadn't known yet the medicine. Finally, he could not be Mr. Hyde completely and wanted to leave truth to his old friend. After all, it's difficult to let own heart decide completely. Men hardly prepare themselves not to be loved by others, and the mind enable us to balance with reason.